Everybody talks about social media like it’s such a great thing. I’m totally in for it, but only today have I realised the viciousness of social media, or rather, STOMP.
Wow, the things that people write. I never realised that people can be this fucked up. Truly. So many family and friends have had to deal with the loss of a loved one, and yet idiots write stuff like “burn in hell”. What the hell is wrong with this society? All these heroes try to pull as many tricks as they can to get attention. They are just really, really pitiful minions aren’t they?
I woke up today and it’s clear that it’s finally over, we’ve lost one member in GR, and one friend to watch grow old and have children. Twenty years from now when we still meet up we will all be wondering what life would have been if he’s still here. It was a dramatic funeral, like a scene pulled right out from a Taiwanese or Hong Kong drama serial. The rain and the thunder was incessant only for the ride to the cremation center and back, and it stopped just as suddenly as it started.
It’s never the same losing an old person and losing a young one. With an old person, you sort of accept that as part and parcel of life. With a young person, it feels like life has been pulled out from right underneath his feet.
At the funeral, I was trying to get career advice out of Chan Choo and I sounded like an old person compared to her. Honestly, I really just want my family and friends to be happy, healthy, and be financially comfortable. I have all that now and I’m really contented. I just wish I can say the same for my own life. Why? Why after these changes and I’m still not the happiest that I can be? Why do I feel like everything is such a struggle still? I want to achieve so much more than what I have right now and it’s killing me that everything is just a blah.
My relationship is filled with cracks, I’m not contented with my professional life because I just feel stuck all the time. What else is there left for me? I feel like there is so much more out there but I’m still stationary, standing here.
Perhaps a third party would come and tell me that I need to slow down and take things one step at a time. My question right back will be WELL THIS IS FUCKING SLOW! I need more challenges and excitement to keep me moving or I’m going to turn stale and unmotivated sooner than anyone can expect to happen!
WHY? Help please?
